Diary of Janet Huang (Huang Jianing) 10-17, January 2012
- Category: Diary
- Published: Tuesday, 24 January 2012 18:05
Somebody lent me a book called TEN THOUSAND WHY and there is a passage asks why there is a hole under the flower jar? As everybody knows, one should always water the flower in the jar or it will be thirsty to die. If one gives too much water, the root will rust, so the hole can keep the moisture and catch the air to ensure the healthiness of the flower. Book is our best friend and is like an ocean of knowledge. It makes people clever and gets rid of the loneliness. Because of my eye, Daddy didn’t allow me to read too much, instead, he reads to me.
Today is the last day of the 14-day chemotherapy. The herpes begin to have incrustation and the pus is disappearing. Tomorrow I don’t need to have 2 needles. These days I rested in bed suffering the freezing cold liquid passing through my whole body and the sore bones without any movement. Daddy helped me with everything, eating, washing, and using the bathroom. Doctor visited me this afternoon and encouraged me. Oh yeah, I could possibly go home next week! Behave! Behave! Behave!
What worries me most is the FEVER. I got it this afternoon! I was so excited yesterday for the herpes is getting better and waiting for leaving the hospital soon, but now,,, They did the scary blood-drawing several times per week and it got worse with the fever. I felt so tortured.
The sick ward is getting sterilized and I am getting the platelet in front of the sick ward. I didn’t sleep well last night with the saline and the high fever of 39.6. They checked my temperature every half an hour. My fever drops down a little bit today but I have the serious allergy with all the itchy rashes, so they gave me some medicine against it. Nurse told me not to break the rashes or it might get infected so Daddy did some gentle tickle for me. What a terrible feeling!
I didn’t have fever today that means the WBC is increasing and I still have hope to go home for Spring Festival. All the rashes disappeared last evening and so did the fever. Please please please let me go home for Spring Festival without any more accident!
It’s been rained for 2 days and never stopped. My mode is very down during the rainy days so I telephoned some patients in Ningbo hospital. A couple of them could possibly leave the hospital while the others might stay. They bear the same bitterness as me over and over again. I ate a lot in order to grow more WBC and leave the hospital as soon as possible.
I had fever again and there is only several hundred WBC. The more I want to go home the tougher it is. The Marrow-Matching Doctor called and said they’ve found the perfect matching person and told Daddy to pay for the physical checking fee. Daddy agreed and asked the nearby Ayi to take care of me. How terrible if we couldn’t go home that Mummy wouldn’t be able to purchase or eat. Every time we called her, she either didn’t eat or just ate some leftover porridge. There is no washing machine at home so Mummy needs to do all the washings after the sleepiness of my little brother. I do hope we gather together to celebrate the Spring Festival.
My cousin sister gets married today and normally my parents would go help and we would join her wedding but I couldn’t leave the hospital. I did the Regular Blood Test today and the WBC didn’t change at all. The fever was back in the early morning and the scab was terribly itchy. How could I bear it without scratching? I couldn’t even close my eyes and there is no miracle medicine for it. Nothing helps except the tears. Nobody would understand this feeling only if he bears it. What I could do is to pray. Pray to exchange the future sweetness with my present bitterness. I pray for this EVERYDAY!